Okay, so im at that TOM again. I started today, and we're going swimming tomorrow. Timing sucks really bad. Anyway, the hotel is pretty fancy and I'm a bit upset that I can't swim. Tampons are not an option for me bc of my reasons and my mom's. Not everybody will be swimming, I'm 100% sure of that. My aunts and grandparents usually sit it out.

I want to be with them at the pool still. I'm thinking of wearing my swimsuit with a pad and maybe some shorts. Though it's only my first days and i'm rlly rlly light. I might just sit on the chairs and read a magazine and dip my feet in from time to time. Maybe just play with the baby in the really shallow water too. (i won't go in, i'll sit and play with him on the edge of the pool with my feet in.)

What else could I do while they're swimming? It's only one day anyway. Maybe listen to an ipod while they're swimming on the chair? or pay to go their spa and get a facial treatment? Even though ppl say your period stops in water, I'm not ready to take a risk.

This isn't our only plan. We're also going up to the mountains on a tramway. I'm so happy i can do that.

But what can i do while they swim?
i want to know what i should do while they swim. So plz dnt tell me to use cups or tampons. Why? It's my choice and I refuse to use them. I'm just not comfortable with them.